miraachaan

2006-12-31T00:02:00.000+08:00

i am quitting this blog.

but i've started a new one.
since i like snapping pictures, why not i share them!
so, i made a photoblog! haah.

there'll be only images, images, images..
no more words, words..

www.-polaroids.blogspot.com

when i was young

2006-12-29T16:28:00.000+08:00

i want to not care.

these are times when you don't have to care about anything :

these are times when you wish time could pause just for you.
and these are times when you felt so young still.

you know, friend...
he sees me as a straycat who needs to be taken care of cause back then, i've never understood anything. not even the true meaning of friendship.

i choose not to hold friends too close to me.
and up till now, i don't know the reason why.

i can't click with any of them.

but he has friends, loads of them. his friends look out for each other everytime and care so much for one another, cause they believe they are family.

i have a mom, a dad, a brother. we are family.

but a family-friend is different,
we share our deepest secret with them.
& we don't pretend.

i share secrets with nobody and my life is full of pretence.

so stay with me,
cause you are whom i seek happiness with.

i dont read blogs anymore.
i want to stop blogging. ee.

heart got pain

2006-12-19T00:11:00.000+08:00

BAKA larrggh. we came from far, were caught in the rain, reached and ordered but they gave us nothing but 'SORRY NO KERANG'. aiyo, next time MUST GO lau pa sat and no where else okay. EAT THERE HEART NO PAIN! in the end, we decided on tom yam soup and cheese loti plata, hyder had rice. there you go...make my heart pain. LUCKY not pricey, or i'll start a massacre. goodness.

TREAT ME LIKE THE REST OF THE PEOPLE.

craaap

2006-12-18T01:24:00.000+08:00

family dinner at saujana :)

we are family!

it has come to the point where i don't care anymore. i have life to live.

DO YOU?

i love you more!

2006-12-10T00:54:00.000+08:00

the other day, the cousins and i went for a bowl at Orchid Country Club.
2 strikes and a few spades for 3 games. i had 100 for the last game. not that bad okay!
hahahaha!

now that the two have gone home, i miss the card games after midnight and the cousin-to-cousin conversations with candles and cookies. hmm..the house is darn quiet without danial. no more gay shriekings from him. he gets on my nerves most of the time.

i love them, no matter what.

i am now loving lifehouse. they are goood and most of their songs give me the blue-bar-by-the-sea kinda feeling. you know...soft strummings. very very relaxing! =) good for the mind. and i miss going to the blue bar!

nowadays, it's hard to find me at home in the day. cause i am a very busy person. busy occupying myself with buckets of fun with the people around me, and most of all, with the people i trully care for. =DD

oh yeah, life's goood.

miraii you are! says:
in my world..people travel with balllooons.
miraii you are! says:
we fly.
[[hyde+miraiiii_] _mira the cockles monster!. says:
den i will disturb by blowing anyhow into ur world, then everyone fly duno where, get lost
miraii you are! says:
in my world..disasters never happen.
miraii you are! says:
even if u blow anyohow...u will paint a gigantic rainbow!
[[hyde+miraiiii_] _mira the cockles monster!. says:
i wana grow cigarette trees in ur world!
miraii you are! says:
my people dont smoke!
miraii you are! says:
but we have something like cigarrettes..oni dat..it dosent produce smoke but colorful bubbles when u exhale.
miraii you are! says:
my world is very beautiful.
miraii you are! says:
xDDD
[[hyde+miraiiii_] _mira the cockles monster!. says:
i happen to realise that ><

welcome to my world, love.

oh yah, i forgot to upload a picture of the jooicy jags the other time. so, here it is :

don't give up on me yet
don't forget who i am
i know i'm not there yet
but don't let me stay here alone;

why do all good things come to an end.

2006-12-08T02:10:00.000+08:00

i had a great day, with my girlfriend. (:

oh, we went to lau pa sat.
we ordered cockles. i love cockles but my girlfriend find them gross. she eats 'em though, but in a ridiculous manner. she needs a pair of toothpicks to open the shells up, she didnt want to dirty her hands. while i was devouring the food, she was struggling with the cockles.

grr,
i ended up eating half of the dish.

the day was lovely,
but all good things come to an end.

oh yeah, we walked from esplanade to lau pa sat.
we see tall tall buildings, skyscrapers,
lighted trees,
pretty ornaments,
water dancing,
blinded people were pacing, rushing against time,
against our way,
to catch the train, the bus, the taxi home.
while
we were practically strolling, taking our time..
laughing,
fooling,
sharing our dreams,
wanting this to last.

i don't want to grow up,
and be the people i saw just now.
i want everything to remain as they are now.
nevertheless as technology advances.......yack yack.

i am loved.

pink sky, balloons.

2006-12-05T01:43:00.000+08:00

yay.

i was gazing at the sky, smiling to myself,
when hyder told me there's a gadget which allows me to create my own world.
and so i told him,
the sky in my world would be pink not blue.
the grass will remain green.
instead of the clouds, there would be colorful balloons floating in the air.
sigh, how lovely.

and then i told him,
i choose to become a bird.
i want to be as colorful as a parrot.
i wouldn't wanne be a cat,
cause cats do nothing but act cute.

oh, my hyder choose to be a cat.
>.<

oh, this is me. doing what i have to do. ;)

eye candy!

2006-12-05T01:19:00.000+08:00

01122006 - TCC(after breifing) ;)

02122006 - jrock matsuri preview

03122006 - Ikea

04122006 - Subcom Meeting

we are juicy! we are the boomb!

2006-12-02T01:35:00.000+08:00

we are jooicy! we are the bomb! <333

much looove.

juicy jags II

2006-12-01T00:35:00.000+08:00

thank god i have a banana friend who makes my life easier by writing a detailed and juicy post on the camp. haha. click HERE.

oh yeah, i took this from his blog :

mira,
the food vacuum. lol. fuckin cute can?. guys out there whose interested with her, dun ever bring her to buffets like seoul garden. waste money. lol. oh yea, u sure can dance real well and ur drawing skills kills lol.. real sweet. go art school! yay.try eating with bigger scoops when using spoons. lol

hahaha.

and another :
and then PRESS PLAY! Disco! it was a serious nutter.. mira and sexy ass were party animals.

lol.
i love to groove luhh, people!

<3333

juicy jags.

2006-11-28T23:52:00.000+08:00

i wasn't looking forward to campteen at first. but i am starting to miss it now.
i miss the juicy people! hoohaa.

i am glad for being a part of the juicy jags.
cause' we know, you know..
we are the best!

we simply can't get enough of BANANAS.
& we are famous for our fruit song luhh. :)
lets save the rest till i grab hold of the pictures!

so after dismissal, i met hyder at CP for lunch. thanks to the juicy people, i have loads of lame jokes to share and irritate the boyfriend. woohoo. xDD

got home, had a nap for a few minutes before heading to SP with hyder. TPL was performing for some talent time thingy. i had my eyes half close waiting for it to begin. i knew i was beat but i don't want to miss this. they performed, and for some reason, i was practically smiling to myself though it wasn't a good one from them.

okay image, you're away for a few days.
and came back seeing him on stage, strumming the guitar.
like best riiite? >.< harhar.

oh yah, try harder next time. it's all over for you.
i am sorry. don't hold for too long or i'll EAT YOU UP.
i won't let you have what's mine.
naneenaneepoopoo.

mwahahaha. T_T

now it's official.

2006-11-23T14:15:00.000+08:00

twentytwoeleven.

hey you,
i am not deceiving myself.
i have no second thoughts about it.
hush.
you're mine now.

but.
i am afraid of making promises.
cause' i don't trust my words anymore.

killing me softly

2006-11-21T23:22:00.000+08:00

drawing a guitar is tough for me.
you can actually tell how thin or fat a person is when you draw them.
& this boy i drew is ultra thin. T_T

i was finding for a picture of a boy strumming a guitar but i gave up on it. and drew this instead. i want it to go along with 'killing me softly' which tells a meaningful story. =)

strumming my pain with his fingers
singing my life with his words
killing me softly with his song
killing me softly with his song
telling my whole life with his words
killing me softly with his song

i heard he sang a good song
i heard he had a style
and so i came to see him
to listen for a while
and there he was this young boy
a stranger to my eyes

i felt all flushed with fever
embarrassed by the crowd
i felt he found my letters
and read each one out loud
i prayed that he would finish
but he just kept right on
and on and on and on and on and on

strumming my pain with his fingers
singing my life with his words
killing me softly with his song
killing me....
telling my whole life with his words
killing me softly with his song

he sang as if he knew me
in all my dark despair
and then he looked right through me
as if i wasn't there
but he just came to singing
singing clear and strong

you're killing me softly
with his song

my friend and i were talking about Wii Nintendo and i must say that it is one of a kind. he's driving me into buying it but it's not the time yet ah friend. i am still eyeing for a psp. it's like better late than never man. haha.

official?

2006-11-20T02:13:00.000+08:00

18/11/2006.

&

wakao.

vivo

2006-11-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

okay, i shall wait for the right moment.
where there will be no cats around to interrupt.
hahaha xD

friend, don't think too highly,
at the end of the day, you will only hurt yourself.
you are just like everybody.

& OMMA! happy birthday!
aza aza FIGHTING! :)

why

2006-11-18T01:48:00.000+08:00

empty.

my head.
my heart.

campteen or skanatics?
i cant decide.

xD

2006-11-14T23:07:00.000+08:00

4th November } Raya
the pictures might be too small to see but heck lah.

these people are official camwhores. even my schoolmates can't beat em'.
no joke. xD

i drank too much last night

2006-11-13T02:55:00.000+08:00

i just felt that i need to be here.

i want to thank you for giving me a hug in the middle of the platform, just to make me feel a little better. i am sorry for keeping everything from you but i, for one, don't know the reason why i cried. prolly, everything went too fast for me and i struggled to catch up in time.

READ : i had to part with my mates, seeing everyone around me laughing away with friends and family, left my blazer in the studio, my phone died on me (batt was empty), i had to make 4 calls in order to get to you (i owe an'am one for saving me), seeing her..., seeing you in a dress, time refuse to stop for me. i was demoralised.

okay, enough.
it's over already.

there'll be hell today but if i can see you and have myself wrapped in your arms, i know it won't be that bad.

i can't blame anybody for this but myself, innit?

nco camp 2006

2006-11-11T01:17:00.000+08:00

i will miss each and everyone of them terribly.
i don't want to come back home.
i don't want to see faces i see everyday.
despite the sun & the bodyaches, i enjoyed my time there tremendously.
i really do.

i made new friends, and reunite with the old ones. =)

(there are more!)

i will miss you too, my beloved kindergaten friend! xD

it was sad.
no one was there for me.
no one was there to say 'mira, i am so proud of you.'
there were amin & hilmi, yes..
but where's the people back at home?

oh wait, do i have one?

give me a chance to see that you are made for me

2006-11-06T00:20:00.000+08:00

i wish i could be a better sister, believe me.
don't dissapoint me by being me.
do maa proud for me, and
remain as you are, love.
remember i love you. always.

i had a night with my two boys. =)

& i hope you like the pendant i got for you, hyder.

wo ai! =)

if it makes you happy,
it can't be that baaaaaaad ~!

happy, i am. xD

i think i love you

2006-11-04T09:44:00.000+08:00

they had the drinks but hyder didn't allow me a sip. i haven't had a drink for an extremely long time laaaaaaaaah. fuckening.

ended up with a drunk in my arms at 2 in the morning.
i told him to take a cab, but he, being his stubborn self, refuse to.
in the end, i gave in.

& i don't like the idea of him piercing his ears but what can i do, he had it done before i could stop him. T_T

bwarghh! (so, this is how it feels)

i have you
ya lah, what for you have me when you don't listen to me >.<

but i know i have a job to do.

you will never be there again

2006-11-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

who do you have? & who needs you?
'oh nobody, nobody,' i say.
so, i see no point of living.
i am no hero, i am nobody now.
i wish i could say arigatou but i find no one to say it to.
now, i'm not asking for your pity.
don't come to me and say you are sorry.

sometimes i wish i could say everything to you but i can't get myself to do it.
we hold hands.
we share hugs.
& inner jokes.
you care.
you told me not to worry.
but you don't know what's bothering me.
show me you have the power to turn my life beautiful.
you are something. and i want you.

oh human, life's unfair.
you have the luxury, but you can't find love.
you have all the love, but you can't afford.
haah. get it?

okay, enough.

yesterday i visited paragon with my cat, manda and ivan. manda had a job interview. and ivan is being ivan. and i had fun.

can i kill myself with cokes and chocolates?
can i meet my brother?
can i drink?
can you tell me where's the turning point?

i want to bathe siaaaaa.
hoho

i miss you.

2006-10-31T23:47:00.000+08:00

okay, blogger can be a real pest.
i hate blogger for now. i really do.

(gives blogger my special vulgar combo)
rawrr.

T_T see lah, i lost a darn important conversation between me and aziz.

i found an ahpek sitting alone at the bus stop the other day. i decided to snap a picture with him. i miss this ahpek of mine.

i think my father had too much of my jsongs, jmovies, jmags and jeverything that he snapped at my mother for no perfect reason and asked her why am i turning into a devil.

why did he blame mama?
puki.

& then i ask, what are we.

2006-10-31T13:07:00.000+08:00

forgive me for not attending band practise today, my percussionists. i don't feel good. it's coming back, my common unknown illness which make me weak and vomit for no reason. i will be back tomorrow, i hope. =)

talk bad 'bout me for all you want. i don't care. i know i am heartless. so, let me be. you will do the same if you were me. i am sure of it.

last night, i dreamt of you. & then i asked, what are we.

can i be bou?

2006-10-28T02:58:00.000+08:00

i worked on the layout for hours. can die you know. but then, i enjoy web designing. =) do ignore the old tags.

i'm dreaming of becoming bou or tifa or chi even. i don't know why, but i have a sudden urge to cosplay. i waaaaaant. cat and ivan are cosplaying in december and they are desperate for cash to get gothic outfits for themselves. i was invited to join them but wait till i get an outfit for myself can. i find gothic looking babydoll costumes darn kawaii lah! i want become a gothic lolita can? T_T

*please take note that i am not refering to those kids who color their eyes black and label themselves as goth and go so emo and and urgently need to get a life.

here, take a look :
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, kawaii!

i haven't practise my last bit of doraemon. tomorrow's the day. i think performing doraemon is a goooooooooood idea especially when your audience are 12 year old kids. haha.

now i shall sleep.

aozora

2006-10-27T04:19:00.000+08:00

i am tired